cuz I’m riding the wave riding the wave with you
Cuz I’m riding the wave riding the wave with you
Let me take your hand
Let me show you how to stand
And stay youuuuuuu
in whatever you dooooo
whatever wave you rideeee
I’ll be side by side with youuuu
Whatever tide may come
you and I we’ll run
Towards the prizeeee
Closer together
lovers forwverrrr
Best friends
it never ends
It only gets better
with time
Cuz we’re riding the wave, riding the wave with you
Music to my ears
happy tears
a fine beat
a sweet melody
smiles, sways, close my eyes
feel that joy come to rise
music is a gift to our souls
we hear something good
& crave more, using it as a tool
to regulate our joy levels
when we feel disheveled
we have music to hear
Even better we get to share
the good stuff
& spread that musical joy
to the ones we love
& care for
I will live and not die
I will learn how to thrive
In the unknowns and to be’s
He’s the only one I need
You are truer than true
No one is more important than you
Yahweh is for today
Tomorrow and longer term
I’ve got so much to learn
From his tenderness
He takes my hearts mess
And wraps it like a bow
Shows me where to sow
I will live and not die
I will learn how to thrive
The unknowns do not scare me
I take courage, under His wing
That’s where I look and see
The beauty
Of what He’s doing
And will continue to do
I will live and not die
My joy, in Him
authenticity is key
but what is it
how do you know
when you hit the gold
of being real
keepin it genuine
cuz that’s what’s we need
no more filter
no more mask
how do we achieve
the task of creating safety for everybody
where they feel free to show up brokenness and all
still welcomed, loved, and beloved
wouldn’t that be cool?
building some glad to be togetherness
is one tool
that can change guarded to open hearted
that can change fear to drawing near
that can change water into wine
bringing new life
dining together
feasting on joy with eachother
Sometimes writing hits differently when it’s poetry!
Writing poetry might just be the exact outlet your brain needs to function its best & healthiest, in return, providing greater space for joyfully connecting with self, God, & others.
“God would you give me spiritual vision to see the mission of what you’re calling me to
not gonna lie, this is a trial sometimes I don’t know if I can do
But in you, I am strengthened, in you, you are my source
you revive me, my capacity is lengthened
your genuine grace I see
I can do days on days of this
Bring it on if that’s what it takes
As long as I have you to show me new ways
To move, groove, and ride the wave
Trial me all day, I’m not gonna cave
Cuz your love sustains
Even adds new membranes
In ways I need to succeed
In this mission, vision, & reality I think you gave
& if it’s true, I’ve got no better choice
Than to ride the wave with you
I’m finally surfin with you
Surfin on your peace
Surfin on your joy
Surfin on your love
May it be so for others, too”
Attachment pain
It stresses your joy vein
Sadness, grief, loss
Connection feels like it’s been tossed
What to do it’s overwhelming your best you
Thankfully there’s hope
A different way to soothe
Making all things new
Freshly re-entering that joyous feeling of youth
But how to do it
Here are a few tips
If you choose to commit
Surely good things will grow
Out of the sorrow you’re holding
Sing, pray, dance
Connect with those friends
Where loss doesn’t stand a chance
Go on that run
Soak in some sun
Tell yourself “this feeling will subside”
“I just need to flow with the tide”
“Tomorrow will be a new day”
“So today I ride the wave”
“Tomorrow I will do the same”
“Til this pain subsides”
“& a fresh tide, shows me a new wave to ride”
Attachment pain. We all feel it. We all experience it. We all have access to solution for it. Let’s learn, together how to ride with the wave of attachment pain so we can live into our most joy-filled, best selves.
Digging deep wells
Digging deep wells
That’s what we’re doing
Digging the wells
Digging the wells
That is who we are
We got dirt on our face
from digging new space
sunshine in the pocket
from the joy you giving
Storing your grace
In our hearts
Cuz we’re digging the wells
Digging the wells
Digging the wells
of your loveeee
Cuz we’re digging the wells
Digging the wells
Digging the wells
of your loveee
We got dirt on our face
Digging new space
We got dirt on our face
from digging new space
sunshine in the pocket
from the joy you giving
Storing your grace
In our hearts
laugh about the silly
crack yourself up
for simply being human
enjoy the little things
spread your wings
smile big
soak in the quiet
play & rest
stay by it
hold it close
your heart needs it most
come alive
let’s thrive
together
in joy
Sundown to sundown
we rest, play, and enjoy
the day he gave
for us to rest in the warmth
of his arms
a slow morning
a spontaneous afternoon
a candle lit dinner
it always seems to end too soon
we are growing
learning how to rest
to be His children
is truly the best
A God who designed us
to be filled up on Him
He’s perfect, fun, creative
It’s the biggest win
Shabbat we will grow in
Shabbat we will live from
Together, we experience
Shabbat with Shalom
Shabbat Shalom, friends
You & Me forever
a love affair
full of affirmation
joy and wonder
my one and only heavenly lover
lets dance
lets laugh
lets cry
lets fly away
soak up all the time we have
endless eternity
it starts now
you and me forever
my heavenly lover
I love you
thank you for showing me the way
thank you for showering me with your grace
“you’re special, you’re unique”
“you’re desirable in everyway”
“you built your house on a rock”
“nothing will stop you”
from pursuing me, all eternity
it is your prophetic destiny
enjoy and share, like you do
My wonderful housemate is moving out onto an amazing living opportunity that has been presented to her. It’s incredible! & upon hearing this news, for a split 10 seconds (let’s be real probably more than that) I was like "oh man" in my head, doing my best to outwardly show only the excitement and trying to hide the feeling of sadness and perhaps a little fear of the unknown. I didn’t like that, because I deeply wanted to authentically be fully all in with celebrating my housemate’s new endeavor, trusting all would be well at my house, too.
I felt what I believe the Holy Spirit whipser to me, “Kailey if I provide for her, why wouldn’t I also provide good things for you, too?” Upon hearing that thought, I felt peace rush through my body, a sense of calm came over, hope revealed itself, again. Like it always does. Why do I worry?
Almost simultaneously, another thought pops in my head "I wonder what you're up to here, God? Surely, it is good!" So I start praying over the soon to be empty room & just say "whatever you see fitting I'm so down God!" Whether that be a new housemate, no housemate, foster care, refugee support, etc etc, anything & everything.
Same day my roommate officially makes the decision to move out & take this opportunity she has for her own place, I go to a wedding (last Sunday) & I have this keen sense God is going to do something significant there. But I literally expect to know about 2 people there total haha. Hmm. What are you up to, God?
After the ceremony, I go to find my seat, as I approach the table I will be dining at, this beautiful gal with a kind and warm demeanor comes up to me and says something along the lines of, "do you remember me Kailey?" Turns out her name is Kailee too! And I realize we had met years agoooo at an outdoor every heart worship event in Holland.
We start chatting, she asks what I’ve been up to lately, I start talking about all things God, joy, and adventure, including working on this house that God provided for me to live in and have as a place of belonging for others, a place of peace.
I briefly mention that my housemate is moving out and I am starting to pray about what to do with the soon to be empty room in this next season and as I am talking, Kailee lights up and says something along the lines of “I am actually looking to rent a room & be in more community before I transition to getting married.”My heart starts to feel warm, a sense of peace and hope fills my body. Woah.
We take a week to pray about it. Then we make a decision.
Done deal. That quick, God provided next steps. Kailee is officially my soon to be new housemate and we are going to be walking together in growing in our relationship with God and helping to prepare for her upcoming marriage in the next 6-12 months. Not only that, she and her significant other are eager to practice and apply more of the life model into their lives, a way of living that I am deeply passionate about and have prayed my home could be a nurturing place for just that. To be able to live with a housemate excited about this stuff is a double blessing. I cannot wait.
Thankful for experiencing joy with God’s provisions. He want’s to share his joy through provisions for you too, friend! Sometimes even that quick.
“If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him” Matthew 7:11
full schedule
many friends
loving people
it’s not a a trend
It’s a way of life
that breeds joy and light
but in my own might
I become worn
but I get torn
because people
waiting to be loved
the needs are great
the resource is few
so I try to be two of me
but that can’t possibly be
cuz God made me one
He says rest
I’ll take care of other’s stress
you need only be still
Go play
Go create
Go enjoy my playground
nature is the world’s renown
of beauty, strength, and opportunity
to spend time with the majesty
of all creation
Go play, Kailey
imagine, dream,
let me remind you, of who you are
my wild child, full of adventure
never let up
just let me fill your cup
enjoy, and spend time with me
cuz I love you
Let’s get equipped on our relational circuitry.
Let’s spread joy to the masses
Let’s take some classes that help us grow
So we can sow into what’s good, right, and true
How bout you, what you wanna do?
Join me, let’s become more free
Let’s live, let’s love, let’s laugh with good purpose
Let’s surf the big waves
& stay relational, our best selves,
All our days
Were made for it
It’s in our design
Love affair
To be His Bride
I can wade through any tide
I can love wide
and sit side by side with danger
and not be overcome
Because my lover won
My heart
Long ago
There’s no stopping his daughter
from becoming
Who she’s made to be
Loved, redeemed, free
I belong to the one who made me
Fearfully, wonderfully, chosen
His affirmations of me are woven
in my inner being
through my mind
I hear His voice
“you’re one of a kind”
Daughter, friend, lover
You start a trend
on true identity
looking to me
as the one to show you
Who you are
Those scars you have
They’re lovely
They tell a story
of strength, resilience, victory
The growth you’ve done
Is preparation for what’s to come
I will not stop the good work
till its complete in you
On the day I’m coming through
to make all things new
Daughtership
It’s true
You’re mine
I am yours
I am secure with you
We are forerunners
For His glory
We are
Sons and Daughters
For His name
Loved, cherished, delighted in
With Him we win
Our biggest battles
Land mines, temptations, sin
No comparison to being on the “in”
With creator, designer
The one who made us
We can trust in everyway
He’s here to stay
Not goin anywhere
He says draw near
I’m with you
Thru and thru
We fight together
To learn freedom, joy, peace, and love
We build the kingdom of God
On earth as it is in heaven
We aint messin
This is real
This is truth
It’s time for you
To be the best version of yourself, too
True identity
Sons and daughters
Find your best self
Here, with the father
He loves you
You’re made to shine, too
Let’s do this, together
One step at a time
For my inside dimes
Somethin bout love
Breakthrough shines through
The fear, the dread, the toil
Let my joyful oil drip all over
You need only be still
I will cover you
So we sing, we dance, we rejoice
I let that oil make noise
We sing joy, joy, joyful oil
Drip, drip, all over us
We sing joy, joy, joyful oil
Drip, drip, all over us
My revelation will guide through
My love will watch over you
Like a ship in the night
My light shines onto
The path I set out for you
Because you’re the one I love
My holy dove guides
You only need abide
Cuz I’m truer than true
I make that known to you
You need only be still
Im here for you
One step at a time
Let my joyful oil drip all over
So we sing, we dance, we rejoice
We let that oil make noise
We sing joy, joy, joyful oil
Drip, drip, all over us
We sing joy, joy, joyful oil
Drip, drip, all over us
My purpose
Firstly, is to be loved
And to know His love
Covenant marriage
To the divine, the triune
Second is to love others
Without limit
To grow by the minute
One day become a mother
That nurtures without tether
Who builds family with her lover
The one God destined to cover
Together one, a fusion for His glory
My purpose is to shine the light of joy
To this lonely and broken world
To help others enjoy
The work of His hands
My purpose is to strengthen
The church back to health
My purpose is to lengthen
Believers relational wealth
Unto sanctification
That reaches the depths
Of wholistic living
Relational, emotional
Mental, spiritual
Social, Intellectural
Holiness
We’re on our way.
My purpose
Is to be loved by Him
To become fused with a Godly win
Build family and nourish
Live from a place of joy
Teach others to enjoy
Strengthen the church with health
Shine with courage
And Fulfill destiny
Hand in hand with God
The one who sees
This is my purpose
Let’s shine, together
My top values:
Joy
Authenticity
Belonging
Adventure
Ephesians 2:10
childlike with adult friends, is a beautiful feeling, leaves me reelin, in the best way
why do we loose childlikeness when we do adult things?
we’re not meant to loose it, yet if we don’t choose it, the work swing runs hard, & our inner child get’s marred
sorta lost it once, but it came back more true,
& if you’ve lost it, not late for a do over, it’s in you
freedom, love, adventure, and to belong, my hope for all, please come along
the God who created us, is one we can trust, for goodness, safety, peace, and joy
he’s the one who designed us, let us enjoy
the work of his hands, is beautiful
he designed you wonderfully, too
cmon let’s be childlike, the world needs you
Psalm 19:1
Unity
is building authenticity
it’s fostering sense of community
We practice the way, together
Unity is Authenticity
It requires mutual respect
understanding, and empathy
Authenticity grows with ownership
Pursuit of relationally wellbeing
& the building of positive relationships
We address relational issues
We grow in joy & peace, together
Unity, is fostering community
It’s belonging and connection
Everyone feels valued & supported
We learn, share, and grow together
in the context of safety & support
No one has to abort because they belong
Even when fallin short
We value spiritual growth
We pursue discipleship
together, a slow burn
Unto greater wholeness
Unity is practicing The Way
We emulate Jesus’s teaching on love
Humility, and unity, attunement to the holy dove
We follow His example in all ways
We foster mindsets of compassion, encouragement
Not letting our big emotions sway
us from loving God and eachother
Unity
is building authenticity
it’s fostering sense of community
We practice the way, together
Poetry adapted from lifemodelworks.org
Oh best friend,
Tell us what you’re thinking,
Oh tell us what you’re thinking,
We wanna know your heart
We wanna know where to start
When it comes to love, love, loving
cuz we wanna,
Shine your light, shine your light, higher
Shine your light, shine your light, brighter
Shine your love, shine your love to this worlddddd
Oh best friend,
Tell us what you’re thinking
Oh tell us what you’re thinking
We wanna know your heart
We wanna know where to start
When it comes to love, love loving
cuz we wanna,
Shine your light, shine your light, higher
Shine your light, shine your light, brighter
Shine your love, shine your love to this worlddddd
It is trueeeeee
There is nothin better than youuuu
It is trueeeee
We wanna love like youuuu
So Jesus comeeee, fill our minds with you
So Jesus comeeee, teach us to be like youuuu